Looks like we got an offer on the condo,,I am giving up the only security I had for me and my son, to make my husband happy. My gut instincts are telling me this is stupid and I feel so lost right now. My heart always hurts and ever since the incident I have felt strangely lonely. We argued AGAIN last night and a couple of things he said only confirmed my apprehension.
One thing was when I told him I think if he left me ,down the road he would regret loosing me, and he adamantly and loudly said "NO WAY ,if you pushed me away I soo would be at peace" Is that the kind of thing you say to someone who your afraid to loose? hmmmmm. Also he said that he used to pretend to be someone hes not,someone that I wanted him to be. Now that he is being himself ,he pointed out, I dont like it. hmmmmm is that one to ponder? It made me realize that I have been hanging on to a man that I thought he was. Hes right!! He turned out to be someone I don't really know ! What he did and was capable of doing (deceitfulness) represents who he REALLY is, and hes very double-standard ! I am at about 5 1/2 months post the incident ,,and Im finding myself becomming less tolerant more angry. Im feeling foolish and broken too! this sucks!!!