Tomorrow, my house closes!  I have already moved into my apartment and am liking it thus far.  But I have had to deal with the lawyers and the bank a few times over the past few days and it is really starting to bring me down.  I know (trust me, I know) that this is for the best, but I just can't stop being bothered by closing the house.  Part of me wants to scream and run away from all of these money issues and the reality of not being a home owner anymore - the other part of me just wants to give up the fight. Here's where I am at - the stbx and I have a loan that is not tied to the mortgage.  When the lawyer turns over the money for the house, in theory, that loan should be paid off as well to make sure that the stbx and I have no more linkage financially.  Well, the lawyer says he can't do that - the bank says that can't spilt the loan and have each of us solely responsible for our share of the money.  To me, this is sending off huge red flags because of how irresponsible the stbx has been recently and if he's given a choice about having all the money and paying a small monthly fee, I think he would choose all the money!  This would keep me tied to him for another few years, and there is nothing I can do to stop it.  I have tried.  My separation agreement even makes mention of the loan, but the lawyer won't add it to the trust because it is not tied to the house.  Now this means that I will have to work with the stbx to get things resolved, and I can't even bear the thought of calling him.    I just feel like giving up the fight and letting him win this money battle - it seems like that is his main focus now, to screw me out of money and good credit ratings.  I can't keep fighting it, it takes too much out of me!