I keep waking up thinking that today is going to be better than yesterday - but it seems that something always stands in the way of that for me.

I was motoring along, preparing my house to be sold...and then...as if I wasn't having enough of a bad time, I get an e-mail from my 'father'. (if I haven't already mentioned it somewhere, my parents haven't spoken to me since I told them I was getting a divorce - which is literally 1 month ago). It floored me that I got this e-mail and it took me some time to get the courage to read it - and when I finally did, the email message was blank! He chose to communicate with me for the first time in a month, and all he said was 'hey' in the subject line. I waited, more than an hour to see if it was a mistake - but nothing further... I have been in tears since.

I thought that I had a safe-haven at work but have just come to realise that it too is not as safe as it seems. My boss who appeared to be reasonable has shown her true colours to me today as well. I was told that I should take as much time as needed to deal with everything and push work to the back burner - one month later, I am getting sh*t for deadlines that she missed!

I am seriously losing my mind today. I have spent more time in the bathroom at work, crying, then I have at my desk working. And to top it off, I am suppose to go for an interview tomorrow for a great job - and don't think I have the ability to think about more change! I think I should cancel it.

Just when you think life can't get worse.....