Why do these stupid little triggers keep going off in my head? One minute I am perfectly fine with this divorce, and then, out of the blue, I fell like the worlds biggest loser for having my husband not love me anymore!!!
I keep wanting to be mad at him for making a mess of my future, but then I turn around and blame everything on me! I know he is the one who wanted the divorce - I am now coming to terms with the fact that he may be gay, but none of this helps me feel better about the situation.
All I ever wanted out of life was to get married to a wonderful man, have a good job and raise a family! Now, it seems that that is all taken away from me. We had a common goal - we both (apparently) wanted a family. We agreed that either I would be holding my child in my arms by my 30th birthday or be pregnant. Now, neither of those will come true.
I keep wanting to be mad at him for making a mess of my future, but then I turn around and blame everything on me! I know he is the one who wanted the divorce - I am now coming to terms with the fact that he may be gay, but none of this helps me feel better about the situation.
All I ever wanted out of life was to get married to a wonderful man, have a good job and raise a family! Now, it seems that that is all taken away from me. We had a common goal - we both (apparently) wanted a family. We agreed that either I would be holding my child in my arms by my 30th birthday or be pregnant. Now, neither of those will come true.
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I know how you feel! that\'s why I\'m still married. I have to many emotions right now to make a rational decision. That\'s how I know that I am not ready to seperate. Communication is lacking in my relationship. We are just not on the same page! Does that make any sense? Have no answers for you dealing with the same thing. If i ever come across the answer, sure to past it along. Try and have a good day!!!!