Today

today I had the day off so what did I do... as usual I slept all day I didn't get up till 4. Then I cried for about an hour, and sat around watching movies all day and did absolutely nothing. I always feel guilty when I take time for myself. I have worked 9 days in a row & I got my tooth pulled the other day. Maybe I deserve a little rest? Today wasn't too terrible I guess.
I'm becoming very afraid though, it's getting closer and closer to the day they are going to take my son away. The attorney is trying to drag it out as long as he can. We're hoping that they will drop off a year off knocking it down from from 3 to 2 years, but we just don't know. They have been after my son since he was 14 years old. They tried to make him work for them. They even tried to set him up to get killed. This is a horrible City. The police department runs the drug business, so the crack dealers the meth dealers a cocaine dealers they can go on and do whatever they want ride out there on the street I know anyone selling Pot  having anything to do with pot get locked up unless they are working for the police department. The laws are changing all over the country but not in Kansas. I've always loved Kansas now I'm beginning to hate it. I'm going to have to leave. Right now I have to stay here for my father, and I have to stay until my son comes home. And I think we're all going to get out of here and go back to humbolt.at least we don't have to live in fear out there.