I feel good that I posted a discussion yesterday and I recieved many replies. It made me feel good that there are people who actually care and are okay with listening. I feel like I may have over used the friends I have talked to. They can't really relate also. Hearing from people that have and going through the same thing is nice. I'm going to try to think more positive and pray that the holiday times get better. I'm going to cry when I need to and laugh when I need to. Things will eventually get better.