Why?

Why are you doing this, playing me and dragging me along?
Why do you draw close to me and hum with my hearts song?
Why do you eyes of chocolate brown draw me into their depths?
Why is it whenever you are close I struggle to take breaths?
Why do you use my gifts of love to further your own gain?
Why do you leave when things come close and cause this searing pain?
Why do you pretend to care for me while flirting with the stars?
Why do you treat me sometimes as if I am from mars?
Why is it when things get sticky you freak out and then retreat?
Why is it you truely stuggle with keeping some things neat?
Is this the way you treat all girls as if they're something to you?
But really in your heart you are thinking of someone new?
Or do you really love me, really care for me and such?
Or am I just another in a line that works as your lifes crutch?
Am I the only one who gives you these things that you need?
Like back scratches, yummy cookies, does your washing and gives you a feed?
Or are their other girls when you're at UNI and at work?
Others who are pretty don't cry and have that perk?
What I need to know is Why? and if there is something there?
Because I like you, all of you especially the way that don't run from my despair.
But there are things you do that make me feel like this is a ruse
The selfishness, the distant times and my heart thats started to bruise.
I wish I knew so that iIcould make the right decisions for my life.
Do I go or do I stay or do I wander through this strife?
But back to the main question that I need to ask of you?
Why are you doing this and what do you want me to do???