I don't feel like being hateful today.  I want to study the Affordable Care Act, and I have to make a decision on whether to stay on the grid, do the meaningless project my class requires, or study the bill that passed.  
I know myself, I will go rouge, I am the male version of Sarah Palin.  I always do, and with God as my guide, it always turns out great.  
My great grandfather was a self-taught man they tell me, and guys like us don't teach ourselves because we haven't had faith in others doing so prior, we feel the need to teach ourselves because the others teaching isn't good enough.  
Today it would be wise for me to sort through the crap in my head.  I have a lot of "crap" in my head, a lot of stress and pressure is creating crappy thoughts that I need to analyze and discard if not valuable.  For instance I have a needy thought that I don't have enough money, that I am getting screwed by a mechanic, and that I will never have enough money.  I have enough money currently, so that thought is a lie, I think I will never have enough money when it is a fact right now, today, that I have more than enough money.  
I am in a bad mood, but I recognize it, it is from exhaustion, stress, frustration, and negativity.  The good news is I am not hate filled, I am accepting, I am willing to learn something new today, I am grateful, I know today is a gift, I know I am improving, I know life is becoming bearable and I am "winning" like I never knew was possible.