Day 7
I've been doing a lot of venting lately. I'm glad I got it all out of my system. I'm very thankful for DS, it has provided a great resource to outlet frustration and despair.
As far as today is concerned, I have a plan to treat my alcoholism, I know that smoking has ruined my insides and I'll never have the voice God intended me to 100% have, and I am coping and understanding sex and how it should be respected and appreciated more fully.
I'm so peaceful today I don't have much to say, however it is good to practice writing because I never know when my own energy will disallow people to like what I have to say. I've noticed that even if I have a legitimate complaint or gripe, if I don't have the right energy attached to it my peers and society won't give it the time of day.
I really enjoy music, of all kinds, and I've noticed the more I accept my position and place in the world, with humility and the understanding that I don't know it all, the more thorough my ability to comprehend precision and exactness in the performers tones.
I know that was somewhat wordy and maybe not necessary vocabulary wise, so what I really meant was I am not judging people in the music industry selfishly anymore, but can also see who has it, who didn't earn it, who wasn't born to sing, who wasn't born to perform, who the naturals aren't. That is somewhat negative, because I have an agenda to only hear "true" music, which is arbitrary in itself, I know damn well if you try it's true, kind of like dancing. I also have an ego the size of Mars, or Jupiter, whatever it feels like that day, and let me not exclude the sun, it can think it is entitled to be that big as well.
And that can be the goal for today. I can use that knowledge, the potential for my ego to ruin things, to check the ego, just in case it feels like dominating others and being something it is not, a major problem for anyone just trying to get along the best they can.
I am fortunate to be surrounded by a plethora of egos daily, and although they always resemble the dispositions of slime, they teach valuable lessons on how not to act if one wants peace, love, common ground, and camaraderie. It takes a powerful person on the inside regardless of status and exterior influence to see how the ego can benefit in personal relationships, but it requires a mature understanding of why the ego is doing what it is doing and how to look beyond the function of the ego to further understand what is beyond the ego. The majority of the world is stuck in the ego, and will always be stuck in the ego because that own ego is telling them it is the end all be all. Most people who swear there is no God will never function beyond the ego, blind to the fact that God or a God entity is bringing them "God" everyday they breath. The ego knows no God but itself, because the ego lacks the intelligence, as intelligent as it may be ironically, to understand then need for outside influence because for the ego to understand it needs something else to help it function better, the ego would have to admit it cannot function properly. Good luck getting the ego to say it is not doing what is good and true, so if you can identify the lies in your ego, that is a great start to understanding your complete self more and segmenting realities for your life where you can designate time and energy to things your find right or acceptable.
I appreciate most men older than me because they really do want to share with us younger people what to do and what not to do. However in a world saturated with egos, the delivery of the information has to come from their own egos, usually with a grain of salt or compassion, and if you have the humility to listen and not question, the God source or the overall picture will allow you to see what their true intentions are and that is most times to give back cost free! You can tell when someone is charging you while teaching you, they won't bow down to their own demands, but they will insist you bow down to theirs. That is a great indication that someone is using you, and if someone has to use another person, well that isn't true, nobody has to use another person in today's world. If we use each other it must be mutual, and even that is probably depressing to God.
There is this singer who is gorgeous, I mean top of the line from my perspective, named Tove Lo and she's got this song that basically promotes casual sex and casual sex with no sense of guilt. "Baby making bodies we just use for fun", that's the line of exposition in the song Talking Body. Nice artistic quality to the whole thing, simple but through production, a nice gift for the music community. If the singer were to casually tell the Pope she wanted to use his body that makes a baby for fun, that nigga would probably croak, but I get it, and I don't think she is saying we all should be whores, she is just in a unique "I need to be special and say something provocative" way saying, it's alright if we fuck if we love each other outside of falling in love with each other in the process. If you've fallen in love with someone you will be tortured with the need to make a baby with that person, but if you just love them who God created and want to show them how much you appreciate them and love that they exist, and of course there is going to be some kind of use in that interaction, you can't just lay on top of each other if emotions are there and you know you need to show them more of the fact that you appreciate them so much there is no other way to show them, words only go so far when you really are grateful others exist.
This is why I think Marriage to be a sin in itself at times, and it all stems from a history of men thinking they have the right to have others as property. It actually also stems from Kings and leaders abusing power and stealing the common man's rights. The common man then gets offended and hurt from the arrogant and ignorant King, and before you know it true pain develops because spirits can no longer display love through action because law now forbids it! And Man is capable of creating omniscient law, no man is capable of limiting love, that's what it should really read and say.
Well I am babbling, and I've got a nice day ahead of me. By the way UCLA beat the shit out of Zona, and I got to give it up to the Mora clan, great coaches, great personalities too, atleast SC, the western SC, beat the shit out of Zona St.
Someone needs to lose their job if Johnny Football doesn't start today, can you say morons? The dude balls like he's going to be Heisman 2.0 for the rest of this year, and those fuckers want to cap his limit by giving McKown the ball. We all know damn well McKown will not go as hard as Manziel, Manziel was born to be successful playing the position of Quarterback at any level, such a sad situation, the Browns should be banished from the league for violating integrity if they bench Johnny after how well he played last week. Manziel was so impressive in the clips I saw last week and had such drive and desire to compete and win, I contemplated buying his fucking jersey, that dude is such a good football player, the Browns are crazy for not giving him the ball, they deserve to lose.
Have a great day.
As far as today is concerned, I have a plan to treat my alcoholism, I know that smoking has ruined my insides and I'll never have the voice God intended me to 100% have, and I am coping and understanding sex and how it should be respected and appreciated more fully.
I'm so peaceful today I don't have much to say, however it is good to practice writing because I never know when my own energy will disallow people to like what I have to say. I've noticed that even if I have a legitimate complaint or gripe, if I don't have the right energy attached to it my peers and society won't give it the time of day.
I really enjoy music, of all kinds, and I've noticed the more I accept my position and place in the world, with humility and the understanding that I don't know it all, the more thorough my ability to comprehend precision and exactness in the performers tones.
I know that was somewhat wordy and maybe not necessary vocabulary wise, so what I really meant was I am not judging people in the music industry selfishly anymore, but can also see who has it, who didn't earn it, who wasn't born to sing, who wasn't born to perform, who the naturals aren't. That is somewhat negative, because I have an agenda to only hear "true" music, which is arbitrary in itself, I know damn well if you try it's true, kind of like dancing. I also have an ego the size of Mars, or Jupiter, whatever it feels like that day, and let me not exclude the sun, it can think it is entitled to be that big as well.
And that can be the goal for today. I can use that knowledge, the potential for my ego to ruin things, to check the ego, just in case it feels like dominating others and being something it is not, a major problem for anyone just trying to get along the best they can.
I am fortunate to be surrounded by a plethora of egos daily, and although they always resemble the dispositions of slime, they teach valuable lessons on how not to act if one wants peace, love, common ground, and camaraderie. It takes a powerful person on the inside regardless of status and exterior influence to see how the ego can benefit in personal relationships, but it requires a mature understanding of why the ego is doing what it is doing and how to look beyond the function of the ego to further understand what is beyond the ego. The majority of the world is stuck in the ego, and will always be stuck in the ego because that own ego is telling them it is the end all be all. Most people who swear there is no God will never function beyond the ego, blind to the fact that God or a God entity is bringing them "God" everyday they breath. The ego knows no God but itself, because the ego lacks the intelligence, as intelligent as it may be ironically, to understand then need for outside influence because for the ego to understand it needs something else to help it function better, the ego would have to admit it cannot function properly. Good luck getting the ego to say it is not doing what is good and true, so if you can identify the lies in your ego, that is a great start to understanding your complete self more and segmenting realities for your life where you can designate time and energy to things your find right or acceptable.
I appreciate most men older than me because they really do want to share with us younger people what to do and what not to do. However in a world saturated with egos, the delivery of the information has to come from their own egos, usually with a grain of salt or compassion, and if you have the humility to listen and not question, the God source or the overall picture will allow you to see what their true intentions are and that is most times to give back cost free! You can tell when someone is charging you while teaching you, they won't bow down to their own demands, but they will insist you bow down to theirs. That is a great indication that someone is using you, and if someone has to use another person, well that isn't true, nobody has to use another person in today's world. If we use each other it must be mutual, and even that is probably depressing to God.
There is this singer who is gorgeous, I mean top of the line from my perspective, named Tove Lo and she's got this song that basically promotes casual sex and casual sex with no sense of guilt. "Baby making bodies we just use for fun", that's the line of exposition in the song Talking Body. Nice artistic quality to the whole thing, simple but through production, a nice gift for the music community. If the singer were to casually tell the Pope she wanted to use his body that makes a baby for fun, that nigga would probably croak, but I get it, and I don't think she is saying we all should be whores, she is just in a unique "I need to be special and say something provocative" way saying, it's alright if we fuck if we love each other outside of falling in love with each other in the process. If you've fallen in love with someone you will be tortured with the need to make a baby with that person, but if you just love them who God created and want to show them how much you appreciate them and love that they exist, and of course there is going to be some kind of use in that interaction, you can't just lay on top of each other if emotions are there and you know you need to show them more of the fact that you appreciate them so much there is no other way to show them, words only go so far when you really are grateful others exist.
This is why I think Marriage to be a sin in itself at times, and it all stems from a history of men thinking they have the right to have others as property. It actually also stems from Kings and leaders abusing power and stealing the common man's rights. The common man then gets offended and hurt from the arrogant and ignorant King, and before you know it true pain develops because spirits can no longer display love through action because law now forbids it! And Man is capable of creating omniscient law, no man is capable of limiting love, that's what it should really read and say.
Well I am babbling, and I've got a nice day ahead of me. By the way UCLA beat the shit out of Zona, and I got to give it up to the Mora clan, great coaches, great personalities too, atleast SC, the western SC, beat the shit out of Zona St.
Someone needs to lose their job if Johnny Football doesn't start today, can you say morons? The dude balls like he's going to be Heisman 2.0 for the rest of this year, and those fuckers want to cap his limit by giving McKown the ball. We all know damn well McKown will not go as hard as Manziel, Manziel was born to be successful playing the position of Quarterback at any level, such a sad situation, the Browns should be banished from the league for violating integrity if they bench Johnny after how well he played last week. Manziel was so impressive in the clips I saw last week and had such drive and desire to compete and win, I contemplated buying his fucking jersey, that dude is such a good football player, the Browns are crazy for not giving him the ball, they deserve to lose.
Have a great day.
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