I just found out that I do not qualify for that tax rebate.This shows the absolute sneakiness of GW and his cronies.I have always had a feeling that this rebate had a catch and if you are low income and do not work..well you are screwed.Right now,I am almost broke paying all of these bills and I am in a very bad way..I have got no money.Brad does not know about the energy bill and such.He does not know about the payment plan nor does he know about how I pay for it.Money is a sore issue between me and Brad.We both have different ideas.I am sorry I did not start out in life to be broke at 60.All I know is that I have a very severe illness.My illness has prevented me from leading the life that I once dreamed of.But now as I look back at it,i wouldnt be happy in Los Angeles.I do not drive and from what I hear..that LA transit system is terrible.The freeway is how people get around in LA and frankly who needs it? I do not want this hassle.I have got bi-polar disaorder and it is in the form of a mania.My mania makes me talk and have racing thoughts.Some of these thoughts make me wonder how things should be but I am wondering and thinking how things should have been.But this woman with bi-polar does not have a memory lapse.I have got a very good memory and this is the cause of all of our fights.As for me,I have got no desire to go back East.The town that I grew up in has changed and i do not care to see any of the people that I grew up with.Some of these women are down right stupid and I will tell you why.Not one of them has read a book since high school and that to me is pathetic.Please do not tell me that you do not have the time.I run a house too,but I still have the tim e to do certain things.I make the time.As for me..do not expect me and Brad to take anyone anywhere if you come visit.Number One-you aint coming to my house and that is an order.The only person who is allowed is my only brother and friend Miriam..but since I havent seen you in ages.You aint.I do not have the money to give you coffee.We have got Starbucks and such and that is where will we go.And please do me a big favor-if you come visit me.Contact Metro before you leave and ask them how to get around seattle.Our bus system now is excelleant and a great many people are using it.So my kiddies..you will use Metro and that is it.Gas here is 4.35 a gallon and he needs the car for work.So why should the both of us take you anywhere? It doesnt work that way kiddies! I am 60 now and I am doing all of the things that I could not do for years and I am living it up in my retirement and if you do not like it..remember this.I did not ask to become disabled but it happened here.And I intend to enjoy the rest of my life here and if you do not like it--do me a favor-drop the friendship and mind your own business.