Checking in again... I'm still fighting this depression and also some anxiety.  Finances are really tight right now and that stresses me out.  Hell, who am I kidding?  Finances aren't "tight" because I have no money. LOL I talked to my kids again on Sunday.  They were both at my nephews grad. party.  Yet again more tears from me.  I tried not to cry. I'm supposed to hear one way or the other about that job tomorrow.  I just keep telling myself that its in Gods hands and if its meant to be - I'll get it.  I'm a bit worried though about their background check.  I mean, I have no criminal past.  Hell, I don't even have a speeding ticket.  I haven't been in a treatment facility for my eating disorder since about 1987 (I think?). I can pass a drug test.  I'm more worried that since my credit sucks so bad they won't hire me.  It does suck, but it sucks because I spent the first five years after I left my ex trying to survive and raise two teenagers on my own after having been a stay at home mom for almost 16 years.  I don't even know if they'll check credit.  I'm just assuming that they will since its a job for a government contractor and I have to get federal clearance.