OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 The 2 friends of Suzette's i have been wanting to talk to together(girl in Acc with her and best guy pal) to try to sort things out(was she preg., why was she driving .....) the ones that i will talk to "when i'm ready" well ready or not they're coming back today to talk(boys were home yesterday). I told Dannielle i would be yelling at her, she was like my own before this and i told her it is a mothers right to yell when her kids screw up well this was a BIG SCREW UP and Suzette and her both need to be yelled at but she is the only one here to yell at and she is all healed and can take it now. I have this urge in me to yell and punish and while Dannielle was close enough to be one of ours i feel comfortable "letting her have it" y hope is that this will take care of some of the anger i feel but at the same time i am scared of saying more than i intend. I know you all can understand all the irration things we think, "why Suzette and not her", her mother is already in heaven waiting for her why did it have to be Suzette, But will a 20 yr old understand this is all just venting and i really wouldn't wish her harm. Well i gotta try to get some sleep (yea right) will fill everyone in later and thank you to everyone for being here i have been buisy still working some and had to have a tooth pulled, I have been grinding in my teeth in sleep since ..... and i have ground off 1/2 of 1 tooth, a corner off another, and a filling out of 1, the one with the filling got very painfull last week and couldn't get in to dentest til this last Mon, I swear the roots on this tooth were as big around as my pinky, still very sore, ,dr had hard time getting it out and would onlu pulll 1 cause of course the teeth are all on different sides and they won't numb more than 1 side at a time, oragel has been my friend lately. Anyway thanks again to all and so sorry i was gone so long and there is so much to tell but i have to get up in an hour so i need to at least rest.   luv and hugs to all