Hey all, just want to say thanks for all the support and i luv you all lots. I am sorry i have not been on, was in a real bad funk, real bad thoughts, just pllain tired of it all and thinking of all kinds of ways to get out of living tyhis new life i hate. Then on Thurs, 1 of hubby's guys called in and they were needing to get things done and he wouldn't be back until Mon., so fri and Sat. i worked, worked my butt off!!!!! and i have not felt so good in a long time, just to be out in the fresh(sorta) air stayingh so busy i fall asleep exhausted, and fall back to sleep if i do wake up. Another guy is going on vacation from mon to next Wed and i will be taking his place, i hope, i have muscles hurting now that i didn't even know i had-lol, BUt it is a content hurt and exhausted, i think i needed this change, don't know how long my muscles'll hold out but i'mm hoping for the whole week and half.  I will not be on much for a while but wanted to let ya'll know i am doing better now, just busy.   luv to all, willl try to catch up on journals some but no promises-lol.  luv and hugs