Here it is Monday again, and i swear the in-laws never cease to amaze me. This family knows everything about everyone in it, so they all know how crazy i've been feeling and overwhelmed ect.... Well they were all at the river Sat. drinking and i guess decided to go to the bar, so they called us to b-sit for the nite, now the amazing thing is they thought hubby was still out of town(he took weekend off) and called to ask me if i would watch their 6 kids, Stephen was staying at a friends(injury free-yea) so that would leave me with-Anna/4,Corey/5,Bobby/6,Jason/7,Kandace/8, David/9 and Brandon/13, maybe i'm just still on my pity party but i'm thinking  who in there right mind would ask a crazy, greiving mom to take on 6 extra kids for a whole nite? Luckily hubby was home so i didn't have to say no, as that probably would have upset them(poor them).    I have been trying real hard to be positive about things but it seems the harder i try the more depressed i get. I am actually looking foreward to the counsling Wed.(if it's not cancelled). Is it to soon to be trying to force the positive?   I want to again thank everyone on here for helping me each day, and although my words may not be as good as some, and may sometimes even sound wrong but it is with luv for each one of you that i try, so if something upsets or offends you, please let me know cause that is never my intention. luv and hugs and wishing all a good day/nite.