Here it is Fri. again, no in-laws so far but it is yard sale day for them. I have not heard from Stephen last nite or this morning, going crazy, will have to call collage to check on when they leave for st. lois, I really have to keep reminding myself this is a good experience for him and a big jump towards collage. I will be off Sat. nite and Sun. am, fleas are trying to carry us off, between the warm winter and floods we are over run, have sprayed yard, put the stuff on the dogs-all 4, and still overrun so need to spray the house with the good stuff. Have to load other critters in laundry room, lock cages tight, and hope for best- a guinnie pig(Ava), an iguana(Squirt), and a coatimundi(Streeker), they will be in there own cages but lets face it, both can be food for Streeker and if we don't double and triple her locks she has gotten out. Going to take the 4 dogs and go camping for the nite, Haven't camped much this year, so looking forward to it. Don't know what i am feeling, if anything. Had some really good days last weekend but slowly going downhil since. David is pushing to go get fireworks, I don't want to, got out leftovers from last year for him yesterday, but we don't have any of this, or this....and he's wanting to go. I don't want to go! Is bad enough being first year shopping without Suzette, but we can't pick Stephen up til the 4th after 3:30pm, so shopping with just David feels too hard, But i will do it(hopefully hubby too) for David. David slept on his own again, got up thru nite and i got my lazy butt up with him and took him back to bed(still spare bed), then stayed up to make sure he went back to sleep. I really just want to scoop him up, reattach umbilicle cord(hubby says still attached anyway)and hold him close and protect him forever, now the hard part, he would let me do it, but he needs me to push him, so i push. Sorry for all the rambling and jumbled thoughts, and misspelled words. Hioping all have a good day. luv and hugs
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I ramble all the time so I\'m happy to have some company. I\'m glad you had some good days last weekend because now when you have a few down days you will remember that they aren\'t always like that. We just have to take them as they come and not fight our emotions. Atleast that is what I\'ve learned that to fight a bad day is too overwhelming. I try to embrace a bad day and work my schedule around it. I hope you enjoy your night camping and can muster up enough energy to venture out for fireworks. Hooray for David sleeping on his own. My hubby says the same thing about my \"baby\", who is 13 still being attached. He is our caboose and I wanted to keep him little. Therefore, I have kind of, sort of, spoiled him (lol). My hubby tells me I created a little monster. Anyway see I\'m rambling....have a nice weekend. Love Robin
You will feel so much better once Stephen is home...and I am sure he is fine. I am glad for David too...such success is good for him! Proud of you both...hang in there with us...love and hugs...Karen
It\'s so hard sometimes to go on, but we have to. I did not want to go to St. Louis without Nick and Jordan. Those boys so loved amusement parks! But, I have resigned myself to concentrating on what I have left. I have Travis. He reminded me of that a lot the first 2 years after I lost Jordan, and since we lost Nick. I wasn\'t listening to him, because I was so deep in my own depression. But, I\'m listening now. I want to make sure that I enjoy my family, it\'s hard sometimes though. I\'m sure Stephen is fine. He\'s just having fun. These kids have no idea how we worry! Have fun camping. It sounds fun and relaxing. Love ya honey, Barbara
You don\'t ramble. Your feelings are in need to be expressed and addressed. Thats why we are here. It\'s nice to get out camping, something not done all the time. Change can sometimes be a good thing. Enjoy. Love and Hugs.