Here it is Fri. again, no in-laws so far but it is yard sale day for them. I have not heard from Stephen last nite or this morning, going crazy, will have to call collage to check on when they leave for st. lois, I really have to keep reminding myself this is a good experience for him and a big jump towards collage.  I will be off Sat. nite and Sun. am, fleas are trying to carry us off, between the warm winter and floods we are over run, have sprayed yard, put the stuff on the dogs-all 4, and still overrun so need to spray the house with the good stuff. Have to load other critters in laundry room, lock cages tight, and hope for best- a guinnie pig(Ava), an iguana(Squirt), and a coatimundi(Streeker), they will be in there own cages but lets face it, both can be food for Streeker and if we don't double and triple her locks she has gotten out. Going to take the 4 dogs and go camping for the nite, Haven't camped much this year, so looking forward to it.   Don't know what i am feeling, if anything. Had some really good days last weekend but slowly going downhil since. David is pushing to go get fireworks, I don't want to, got out leftovers from last year for him yesterday, but we don't have any of this, or this....and he's wanting to go. I don't want to go! Is bad enough being first year shopping without Suzette, but we can't pick Stephen up til the 4th after 3:30pm, so shopping with just David feels too hard, But i will do it(hopefully hubby too) for David.  David slept on his own again, got up thru nite and i got my lazy butt up with him and took him back to bed(still spare bed), then stayed up to make sure he went back to sleep. I really just want to scoop him up, reattach umbilicle cord(hubby says still attached anyway)and hold him close and protect him forever, now the hard part, he would let me do it, but he needs me to push him, so i push.  Sorry for all the rambling and jumbled thoughts, and misspelled words. Hioping all have a good day. luv and hugs