David went to bed and fell asleep on his own!!!!in the spare room(the one sis used), he had a nightmare and come to bed with us around 3 but HE WENT TO BED ON HIS OWN!!! and last eve bro-in-law said he always tightens chemicals real tight and he doesn't even see how any the kids could open it, maybe someone mad??, he thinks landlord is just trying to rule out kids, but to threaten to kick us out?, maybe hubby just hit him right after he found it and anger was fresh(hopefully)anyway all looking up, right- wrong, went to psyc dr who upped risperadol(sp?) and i saw counsler who informed me she couldn't see David anymore, she can't get him to open up, and he used to see a guy before who retired and David had not seen anyone else til after accident so he associates counsler with death, another counsler is better at this agressive therapy that he needs, plus he keeps asking what Stephen talks about and if he talks about him, so he will see her one more time then pass him off, he'd rather have a guy but they don't have any at time. I know these are all steps to getting better but hard to hear he needs that much help, makes me feel i have not been giving what he needs, well i knew that but didn't want to hear it. Stopped by Cassie's while in town, Aaron is getting so big!, she is still very sick with preg, but will try to come out on Sun.  We had a good talk, and discovered we both wondered if her getting preg. so soon after Suzette passed was Suzette being reincarnated(she believes, i'm lost on what to believe now and wonder about it all). She was talking about girl names and i said i was hoping for Suzette Bethany, not really but kinda at first, said she had thought about it, but also naming after family. We talked about a few things, she told me how much my advice after funeral helped her(don't remember what i said but ok, glad to help). We talked about Danielle and some of the things she was supposed to be saying after accident, it was a good talk, and i only teared up 3 times, i'm so proud.  Must have missed in-laws today or they didn't come, it may be a good day yet. wishing all a good day and know you all help me through my days, thank you. luv and hugs