Julie left early this morning, we had a good visit, not like it used to be but still good. Is anything like it used to be though, really wish i could turn back time. 2 1/2 days of school left, then summer break, i have no idea what we will do this summer, I just don't like to go anywhere any more and i doubt the boys will want to stay home, well i guess it'll just be me and David most of summer since Stephen will be at collage for 5 weeks, dreading that already too June 14 is when we have to take him there, they say we can go visit every Sun. but with gas prices the way they are i don't see being able to go everyweek. I guess it's like hubby says, i think too much to soon about what might happen, oh well. I don't know what i am thinking or feeling any more, don't know if it's the Prozac or what but i just numbly go through each day, doing what needs done til i can go back to bed. wishing all a good day.
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Oh honey...I am with you...I wish we could turn back the clock too. Your loss is so recent...I remember how numb I was too...and I kept thinking...how could this really be my reality? Little projects to keep you busy is probably a good idea...with a little of the stuff you used to think was fun thrown in. Don\'t just sit around this summer because then all you do is think. It is a long road, but there are some happy times ahead...not exactly like it used to be...but still happy times...be good to yourself...be patient and enjoy anything that you can...love and hugs and much strength...Karen
I understand, there are some days where I just exist and I do that without any meds. I try to keep myself busy with gardening, working, putzing around the house...etc. Try to enjoy your time off and make some personal memories. Take Care, Love and Hugs.
Wish I could turn back the clock for us all. Take one day at a time. Sometimes we need a push to do things. But then we realize it was worth it. Recent I had to push myself to go to my nephews wedding. Wow..I thought it would kill me. When it was over I was glad I went. I know my son would have wanted me go to. Take baby steps. Hope you can find peace. love U
I agree with them all I wish we could turn back time, It is so much going on around us and we have rto put on a face to enjoy other happyness,But it still hurt
love U Caroline
I understand your pain. I wish none of us had to live day in and day out with this emotional pain and sorrow. I too go through each day numb just doing time waiting fot the \"ride\" to be over. I wonder if we can ever be happy again?
Getting through the days is all you can expect from yourself right now. It\'s okay, be gentle on you. One day and sometimes one minute at a time. I\'m hugging you tight, sweetie. Love ya, Barbara