I am feeeling a little less angry now that Suzette's hutch has finally come in. I am taking pics as i fill it and posting on here for everyone to see. Still waiting to beat on the shed, raining today so maybe hubby will have a short day and i can begin beating, if not soon we may not have any windows left in the house as that seems to be what i think about breaking the most. Still have so many emotions that other than angry i'm not sure what i feel. David has been coming into bed with us again the last couple nites, I can't help it i like having him close to hug all nite, I encourage him to go to bed in his own bed every nite but am glad when he does come in. He was doing better for a while then he had a nightmare nite before last and is wanting to sleep with us again. Hubby is very patient with me on this, even bought me a king size bed a while back so there was room for all 4 of us- at first they both slept with us, crowded in a full size. I still feel the need to have them both with us while i sleep but am trying to deal with them not. If i had my way niether one would ever leave my side again but that is unrealistic. hoping for a good day for everyone.
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I think all the feelings you are having are normal. Some people have chastised me for crying....telling me \"I am just weak.\" Some folks have chastised me for being angry, but hey at least when I am angry I am in rage and not crying. Some folks have chastised me for grieving at all. They say, \" What would Tony want you to do.\" I tell them Tony and I were very close. I am sure if I died suddenly he would have gone in an emotional tail spin.
The reality of the situation grief is anger, frustration, sorrow and dispair. Grief cycles and one minute I want to kill someone and the next minute my heart is going to explode from crying. Keeping all your loved close to you is normal as apple pie. Tony was my only child if I had another I would be the same way as you are...hold them close and never let go.
It is normal to feel the anger...the sadness...the tears...they will come and they will go and they will come again. Seems to be the way of our life now...love and hugs...Karen
Anger is a normal emotion, we have to work through it and get it all out. We have a king size water bed and we use to have the two kids and the two dogs in it with us. That was a party, LOL. Enjoy it while you can. Take Care, Love and Hugs.
Don\'t worry about the extra bodies in bed. In time with a little healing, things will change. Until then, enjoy. Life is precious so of course we want to hold it close to us. I look forward to the pics. Love Robin