May 5-my birthday what a sucky day, all i want to do is stay in bed. We have not celebrated my b-day for years, put it and mothers day together somewhere inbetween, can't remember the last cake i had and my sis has decided that i need the whole cake and all today, won't listen when i try to tell her i don't want to. Lots of whispers this am too, they have me scared. Maybe it will be better, differant seems to be better anymore. Everyone is working on plans for next weekend, wanting to know what i want to do-I have no freakin idea, don't even know how i will feel that day, I am trying to think more positively about it, but who knows if it will be a good day or a meltdown day. Well anyway, hope everyone has a good day today.