May

It's May 1st. I hate May. My b-day, and my mom's angel day, and don't forget Mothers day(which was the last day my mom was home before going to the hosp. the last time and passing a wk later in 94). I hate May. We always celebrate my b-day and Mothers day on a day inbetween cause the kids knew i missed grandma so smuch and they were ok with that, think the boys will let me just skip it all together. So many thoughts, feelings ect.. going through my head right now i can't keep any of it straight. Everything just seeems so hard now i am tired of doing it. I just want my old life back where things made sense.