I have a sinus cold and have been taking med and feel little spacy today but it's kinda nice to have my brain blurred for a change. Stephen's surgery is tomorrow and even though dr says its very minor he is still being put under and that has me nervous. This busy week has helped fill my time with more than just time to sit and think and thats good i guess, the end of this week my hutch i ordered for her urn and things should be in and i haven't even been able to bring myself to go through any pics or stuff to put in there with her, I have an image in my head of what i want to do with it, collage of her through the years, grad. stuff, and i haven't been able to get myself to go through anything yet, the only things ready are her and the funeral flowers and nick-knacks and i want more that just the end things in there when we get it. Oh well i will get to it when i get to it.