Yesterday was one of the hardest days in my life I put my dog Stella down. She was my best friend and always here for me in good and bad times. Right now going through all the 1st, 1st wake up without her, 1st day back from work and that happy face shaking so excited to see me. I hate to play God wish she just didn't wake up. Time will heal but that unconditional love that pets give you is something amazing. I didn't drink and patting myself on the back. The thought did cross my mind but would of made it worst. Instead I pigged out oh well would of drank the same amount of calories.