Had enough or should i say to much last night.  The shift is here and the time is now!  I really know I'm a alcoholic, I mean I knew I was butt never really wanted to completely admit it to myself I know completely now cannot even have 1 drink.  Watch football everyone around me 1 or 3 beers and me 14 yeah 14. I don't feel like crap today just really tired and lazy.  Looking out my window such a beautiful fall day should be outside walking or something. Read Mrs.D post she's from Australia and really enjoy her blog, she said it helped her stay sober. I'm going to journal my journey to help me stay sober.  Wow I'm a alcholic can say it and really believe it now.