Day One

LIFE IS SO WEIRD. i dont even know the words to describe what im feelng righ now. confusion i guess?? yeah lots of confusion theres more guy trouble now when is there not... god ima stupid girl somtimesso i think i met the perfect guy, i really really like himwe just click you know, i havent clicked like this with someone since luke. buuutand yes theres a buthes my ex boyfriends best friendand i dont think im willing to go thereBut of course me being the idiot that i am i let him come over to my house the other day and of course things got out of hand. he spent the night and it was perfect. not the sappy love story perfect but it was good. i felt safe, protected. but of course it wont ever become anything, because of ex boyfriendand even if it did become something hes not the kinda guy who staysthe moment i stoped being a mystery hed get bored and leave me and i'll get hurt againso either way im set up for failurebut what if im not scared of being hurti cant possibly hurt anymore than i already do so why notwhy not take what i can geti just wish i knew what he was thinking, i wonder if he even thinks of medoes he like me the way i like him?? i guess i just have to wait and see how all this plays out. and untill then ill just pretend like everthings fine