Grrr

 Ok so it seems tht every single day tht goes by i feel more and more like i'm being used or i'm not wanted.I dont know but its just like nobody really wants to talk to me or be around me unless they need or want something from me.For example, my phone is always ringing and not once have i answered the phone to here someone asking me about my day or about wht i need or want (not tht i ever tell anybody whts on my mind or wht i want to buy but tht beside the point right now).It makes me not want to answer the phone at all cuz i'm tried of having ppl only call me for money.How the hell am i going to help them when i have my own bills to pay but its like they dont care.I'll tell tht person i cant give them the money and they get all pissy with me saying its my fault when they get kicked out or if a utility gets cut off.The sad part is i do feel like it would be my fault so i end up giving them the money and tht just seems to cause more promblems.I just need to learn to say no but i just cant seem to do it. I also am tired of feeling like its my responsabilty to try and make the world better.I'm such a worry wart i'm always consatly worring about everyone.Oh and its extremly impossible for me to be happy if i know or am around someone tht sad cuz its like i feel their pain and i just dont feel right being happy if their not so tht just leaves me with being one thing and tht would be sadness.well i'm just rambling on so i'm going to go for now but i'll be back.