well i feel like shit! my nose is all stuffed up and my head hurts and my ankle hurts a lil and mom and i just got done talking. it was going pretty good we were just having a regular conversation and that's very unusual for us. then we started talking about me doing a college visit out in LA and she's still very much against it and idk why i told her i wanted to check it out cuz i didn't just want to go out right from high school and know nothing about the place. but she still just wants me to go around here and like get use to the college life and living on my own and paying bills and whatever else. and i understand her reasoning but ugh idk. im just scared if i dont' go now that i will be to scared to do it later. she doesn't think i can handle LA and that im not mature enough for it or have good enough education or experience in dance to make it out there. ugh way to put someone down! im glad she has no faith in me! whatever. so mason and heather are getting married. i knew they were cuz they have talked about it for a while but they didn't know when they would have it. well mom informed me that they now have a date and guess when that day is?!?! they are getting married on my 18th birthday! ugh stupid fuckers!!!! srry for my language but that just pisses me off. it wouldn't make me mad if it were like anyone else but it has to be mason. the person who took my childhood away! the one day that can be about me for once and he has to take that away. i now get to assoicate my birthday with his wedding day. but my mom freaked i guess and was like that's ur sister's 18th  birthday! and he was liek ugh ya i know. he was liek you can come if you want. so im guessing my mom will go but that's ok cuz i have a cross country meet anyway's so im not going and i wouldn't go even if i didnt have anything going on. im not spending my birthday at his fucking wedding! but mom said she told them to do it another day and he was like no we aleady chose that day. and i guess she said she was gonna make them chose another day but idk how successful she will be at that.