well i start school tomorrow. im kind of excited but kind of not. i like staying home and doing nothing, sleeping in till like 12, eating whenever i want and good food for that matter. but i can't wait to just get this year done.  so mom and i went to walmart to get my school supplies. and on the way home i brought up the idea of me going out to LA to visit some colleges. me going to college in LA isn't a good subject for us to talk about. she absolutly hates the idea of me going to college there. and so anything to go with colleges and LA is a big fat no. well so i asked her if she would let me to go LA during christmas vication to visit some colleges. well she said no so that wasn't a big supprise but she was like how do you plan to get out there and i said by plane because that woud be faster and she was like no that cost to much. she said she didn't want me to be there alone and i said well amanda and dave live there and she didnt say anything. i told her that matt and nichole have been flying by themselves since they were like 12 (they are kids of my mom's close friend) and she didn't say anything cuz it's true. then she was like i don't want to talk about it and i asked why and she was like just cuz i don't. so i just let it be. i know she's scared to let me go cuz im her baby and it's a really long way's away but idk. i think it would be better to let me do some college visit's down there so i know for sure if that's where i want to go instead of just going out there. cuz it's either i do the college visits and really find out of i just go out there and hope i like it.