well my friend amanda left yesterday morning at 5am to go to LA. it hasn't fully hit me that they are gone. but every once in a while it does n' then i get really sad n' almost start to cry. i miss her so much. i haven't really been talking much. i had a meeting yesterday n' i didn't talk. i said a few words like idk or something but other wise i didn't talk. my mom came with too. all i have been doing is drill team n' sleeping. ive been taking sleeping pills to make myself go to bed. i think i might do that today after i go shower. idk.