well my friend kerri n' i are still not talking to each other. well we do like once a week. i don't txt her i let her txt me. But i did txt her the other night cuz she hit her head on a car n' got 6 stitches n' so i txted her to see how she was feeling other wise i wont txt her. im tired of alway's txting her n' asking her to hang out n' being the one who alway's goes to her she never comes to me never txts never asks to hang out. she tells me that i need to grow up a lil. that i need to change. that im alway's to down n' she tries to help me but it's hard when i seem like i dont' want to get better. ugh she has no idea what im going through she expects me to just get better n' that it's not hard but it is. she was saying this the day after i threw out all my razors! i blew up at her when she said all that. i asked her what more she wanted from me. what more could i do that showed i wanted to get better than throwing out all my razors!!! but us not talking n' not hanging out gives me alot of time to think n' what i think is that she's the one that needs to grow up. she needs to act her age n' she's not. we were talking a few weeks ago on msn n' i was trying to explain to her why i drank at the 4th of july n' why it's sometimes hard for me to want to get better n' she was getting frustrated with me i could tell n' i said some harsh things to her but they were all true n' she hadn't talked in a while but that was ok cuz i was typing n' after i hit send she was still on for a few seconds n' then she signed out. i was so mad bc to me that is so disrespectful. but she alway's do that. i'll be telling her the truth n' talkign about stuff n' trying to explain something n' she'll hang up or sign out. ugh!