We had a game yesterday and today….yesterday I didn’t play and I was really pissed off. We were loosing and then the coach was like trying to get the girls to drive that’s like what I do I drive and i wanted to be put in and do that ugh I hate that she doesn’t’ trust me in big games that that…..tonight I played a lot and I drove in and I wanted to be like ha maybe if you would have put me in last night I could have do that n’ scored more points n’ maybe we could have won or at least gotten closer. Ugh duh….. Ugh so I got home from the game tonight and saw this snowmobile at my house and I didn’t know who’s it was then I saw this red like jeep thing and then a black truck and I heard that a family friend was back from over seas and so I thought that maybe it would be him so I was excited and when I got inside it was mason! Mason is home! What the hell!! Why is he here!! Thing were bad and now they are worse! I hate him being here!!! Ugh please kill me now! He doesn’t do anything but I still feel the emotional part of the abuse. I hate being scared…. It was fine when life sucked and he wasn’t here cuz then I could just focus on it and try and fix it and now I can’t because he will be all I think of now and I just don’t’ get why he’s here!! I hope he’s laving soon!!!
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sorry that mason being home isnt making u happy...hopefully, things will work themselves out...as for the team thing, u have to accept ur coaches choices of who and who not to play
One thing I am learning with my own struggles with family members is that whne they are there and may even be cause of your grief, stress, and frustrations, you will still have the same feelings inside of you that you have to deal with. Mason being home gives you a focal point for much of the blame associated with how you are feeling, but those feelings are still inside you whether Mason is home or not. I\'m not accusing you of anything or saying you\'re doing anythign wrong. I just don\'t want you to make the mistake of saying to yourself \"If these people weren\'t around I could work on myself and be so much happier.\" I\'ve recently discovered how wrong that kind of thinking is because the bad feelings and whatnot are still inside. If you were all alone, you might not know how to feel since no one would be around to delegate blame to.
What Mason did to you was wrong and he IS responsible for you having the feelings you\'re having. Just know what you\'ll have those feelings inside whether he is there or gone and that you\'ll eventually have to deal with them.