i'm sooo tired right now. i just want to go to sleep but i'm scared to dream. i also feel sick to my stomach...i ate to much food and i just feel like i'm gonna throw up. my head hurts and it feels warm....maybe i'm sick but idk. i just want to sleep.....ugh :( I love to sleep and I love to dream but I’m just feeling depressed and I’m scared to have a dream about the abuse. I hate those dreams it makes me sad the next day….makes me feel dirty and yuck….like I’ve done something wrong. I hate it I hate it soo much.  I’ve been thinking about calling my counselor and going back…ugh I’m so scared….i’m part of this teen group thing…It’s kind of like a group therapy thing but not really lol. Like you talk about certain subjects like this week we talked about stress and each week we talk about different stuff and we only meet once a week but idk I like it because I get to talk and it kind of made me think of going back but now I was just thinking that maybe I like it because it wasn’t just my therapist and I in my teen group there are 6 other girls and it’s nice to talk to them and let them know how I’m feeling…. Idk if that makes sense but idk what I’m trying to say. I’ so tired.