Well basketball has been good. I played on Tuesday; I scored 4 pts so ya I didn’t suck but ya. Ugh idk what’s going on?  I just feel kind of sad. Idk it might be because I have a meeting with my counselor on Friday and I don’t really want to go. Our last meeting was ok but scary I guess. It was just scary cuz she knows me really well and I guess that scared me. Idk, she said that I was “interrupted” by the abuse when I was growing up because I don’t know how to talk about my feelings so she said when I was learning out to that all happened so I never learned how to do that. Ugh, she said she was going to break me down and re build it all back up. Ugh I’m scared about that and I don’t want to do it. idk what to do. I just feel sad. I don’t talk to anyone anymore. Not in my life, not one here. I just feel like everyone left me. Idk. Maybe I’m being a baby.  I just hope you guy’s didn’t leave and give up on me.