Ugh I just want to cry. I’m mostly pissed I guess. We had out jamboree tonight. We won so I’m happy about that but we played really crappy but what can ya do about it now I guess. I guess I’m just pissed because I played about 3 minutes of the game. This other girl that is in my grade played more than me and I guess I’m just pissed about that one cuz I’ve worked harder and have been starting over her for the past 2 year and idk were both just really competitive towards each other but this year were actually doing better. I think she played over me cuz she shots and I don’t. I’m also mad cuz my coach got really mad cuz we were playing good and was like no one wants to be out there right now or something like that but that girl and I were talking and were just like well she never gives us a chance to try and prove our selves. Like this was a scrimmage basically so why can’t she just put us in and actually try and let us try and prove to her that we are good enough instead of deciding for her self. And I know she thinks I’m good enough, I’ve been on varsity since I was a freshman. And that other girl is just now on varsity cuz she’s a junior and she’s not bad so why does she play more than I do? Ugh I’m pissed! I’ve only missed one practice my freshman year I think and one open gym this year out of 3 year’s of basketball and all these people get to play over me. Ugh I’m so pissed. And I guess I kind of took myself out of the game. Like on the way home I was just like man I just want to dance. My aunt came home for thanksgiving and she stayed here for a day I didn’t get to see her cuz I had the play all week and so I saw her for about 2 hours the most lol but whatever. Anyways she told me that she talked to my mom about this dance place and it sounded really cool and it’s suppose to be really good and they give scholarships out and everything and I was just thinking man I wish I was there. I think just cuz I knew I wasn’t going to get to play much. I know my coach to much and she usually play’s the same people all the time. Ugh!!!!! I’m mad to cuz my mom talks me up so much and I hate it and when I got home she was being pissy with me and I think it’s cuz I didn’t play much but it’s not my fault ugh! I’m in a bad mood and just want to cry or something!!!!!