I feel betrayed when she alowed my brother back into this house. i felt betrayed when she would stick up for him and not for me. when she was willing to do anything for him and nothing for me. i think because i'm more mature and i can take care of myself that she feel's that she can take care of him instead of me. idk. i understand why she doesn't want to hate him. he's her son and is in the military and was over in iraq and could go back and i understand that she doesn't want anything to happen to him and she wouldn't be able to handle herself knowing he was dead and she was mad at him. i get that all i really do. but what i don't get is why would she try and save her son who if far away and let me die who is right beside her? i don't understand. i don't understand why she thought i could solve what happend to me. idk what was going through her head when she told me to just work it out with my brother myself. i don't understand what made her say no to getting me help. i don't understand why she stuck up for him when i asked to go to family counselor i don't understand! what mother does that to their kid. what mother can sit there and look their lil girl in the eye and say no to getting her help! why would you even do that!!! it hurts me so bad! i want to get over i want to move on but i don't want ot at the same time! surpisenly family is really important to me. i wish my family was closer i wish none of this had happend to me. i just wish my mom could look me in the eye and say i believe you and actaully mean it. my mom is putting me through what she went through. don't you alway's want a better life for your kid? i do! i will never do this to my kid. if he/she want's help i'll give it to them without even thinking about it. ahhh she makes me so mad. she's losing me and i dont' think she cares. what do i do?