My xc girls have districts tomorrow. I’m very excited for them but nervous too. This meet will be harder than state. There are 4 top ranked teams running at this meet and only 3 will be able to move to state this year so one of those team’s will be knocked out right away and we might be it. There is this other team that we’ve been head to head with for a long time and I think we can beat them. We beat them at conference but 23 pts but you never know they could come out of no where if our girls don’t run their race. And I guess the first 15 runners make it to state automatically individually so that is good, it’s to our advantage cuz every person after than goes down so it’s one less pt or something. Idk but it’s suppose to be a good thing for us. I thin we could make it I just hope our girls think so too. Meet with my counselor today. Idk it was pretty gay lol. She’s not very good. Well she is but idk. We don’t do anything but talk and today we just mostly talked about school and a lil about home but it was about mason and how he got his girlfriend pregnant so idk. It was crap. I wish we did stuff, stuff to help me but we talk and I want something more. Idk I just hear about people’s counselor and how they have them do stuff like maybe write things or idk, or bring in pics of when they were younger to see how small they were and how they couldn’t have stopped it. I heard that one and I just wish she did more stuff like that. She said in the beginning she was gonna help with my self-esteem but nope nothing about that. She just tells me things like this is how you should think. Umm today she asked if I had cut and I said yes on Monday and she asked me about it and where and I said my hip, that’s where I always cut. I guess most girl’s that have been sexually abused or violated cut there cuz they think well I’ve already been violated there so why not do it again or something idk. That’s not really why I cut that it’s just the eaist place to hide but whatever so she just said that I should see my hip and not something to violate but something sacred and a symbol of how I’ve over come some things and idk. She just wants me to stop so she things that will help me but no if I want to I do. Idk it’s weird.
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How long have u been seeing her?
Maybe she\'s starting out slowly. Most therapists know NOT to do all that you suggested on here for a long time, or it could be to much too fast, pressuring you into what you aren\'t ready for, and you will stop going. So if she isn\'t meeting your expectations, maybe you should just casually mention what you wrote here. Just say you have heard other\'s have done this stuff, and you found it to be interesting. Then maybe she\'ll explain her plans or procedures. And IF she sucks, then think about switching. You can speak with a nurse or any medical place and ask about the \"best\" therapist, for your specific issues. I\'ve switched a million times, so just know it\'s a normal, thing that happens often. I just relocated to VT, and spoke with a nurse TODAY about finding yet another new therapist, because the new one I JUST GOT IN MASS, that was AWESOME, wont come here! LOL Love u, Nichole
It may be too soon to make a judgment regarding your counselor. Also, a lot of times the small steps of growth that we make isn\'t recognizeable to us until much later. And, if you want her to read your thoughts on paper, or to look at photos, what is preventing you from presenting those things to her.