i fucking hate it here!!!! (srry about the language). i want to leave, i want to just go and stay somewhere, i have a  basketball camp on the 29th and that goes till the 2nd i believe and so i'm staying in the dorm's there and i can't wait i cant wait to leave here ahhh it just pisses me off. again my mom called freaking out! i left her a note told her what  i was doing today. i was at a friend's house and were doing a dance for the fair and i told her that in the note and she called and was like where are you and i freaked, i couldn't help it i was just liek did you not read the not i left and she was like no and i just said well i told you what i was doing, i have this dance thing and hten im going ot work and then playing some baskebtall later. ahh i was soo pissed. and she was like oh well i was gonna see if you wanted to go shopping, or whatever she said. once again she didn't tell me sooner. so no i ended up workign for someone and she was just like well you arn't on the schedule to work and i was just liek well i was asked to. ahh why couldn't seh tell me like yesterday or something, and be like hey i was thinkign abotu going shoppign if you are interested, ah how hard is that!! oh well, i dont' like shopping that much anyway's. god i hate it here. i go to bed at like 3 in the morning or later almost everynight cuz i can't sleep. i stay away twiching all night i hate it. my mind keeps going over the abuse and i mean how can it not the memories are all around me. god i jsut she could understand that.