well idk what to say right now. my friend has been having a bad day all day and i've been there with her this whole day and idk i just feel like crap. one of her friend texted her and was like i'm not making the hip hop dance with you and kayla anymore and she was just being mean. her and this girl fight off and on and we just tell her to leave her cuz she's not worth it. she makes my friend feel like crap alot. and so before this we had talked about how good a shake sounded and so then all this happend and she was upset and crying and i asked her if she still wanted to get one and she said she didn't care but she didn't have any money and so i told her i would buy it and then i decided that we would go cuz it would take her mind off it. so we did. we got a shake each and a lil bag of chips each and some bread stick's and i bought it all, and i had to fill up with gass. (her car is totally out of gass, wont even move) and then came back and that girl decided to make the dance up with us after all and had to meet her at 1, but it actually went well then were nice to eachother and it was good. umm then we went to a solftball game and i had to get gass once again. i then took her to volleyball and then she went home and then aroudn like 9 called me crying asking her to come and pick her up, so i did. she's talking on her phone telling her friend what happend, (her mom and her got in  a fight, they alway's do and she's just really sick of it) and then another friend called and she told her some of it too, and then we just road in slience. umm i got gass AGAIN! frist time i put in 15$ then 5$ then 10$. so totale is like 30 or something. i should have just put 30 to begin with. but basicly i felt that she didn't really appreatiate what i was doing and all the money i had just spent today and i just got my pay check yesterday and now i only have like 20 out of the 55 that was there. my pay check was actaully 106 but half went into saving's and the other into my checking. but idk i just felt like crap and i felt like crap before and then like i had to go and pick her up and she doesn't even tell me what's wrong, which i didn't expest her too but idk, idk what i'm trying to say, i think i'm just tired and upset that i have to go to  my counselor's and i just don't feel appreatiated by anyone and my mom just really REALLY pisses me off and i just want to be gone. i love my friend she is everything and she is truely a great friend and i would do anything for her. just today with everything and then having to buy EVERTHING mad me a lil mad. i just want to cry, want to cut want to die.