ok so i think my mom is trying, but idk. she took today off to figure everything out. the place i wanted to go to called back today they said they had no room and there was a waiting list so they wouldn't be able to fit me in. but she called this other counseling place and got me in with a girl who works mostly with teenagers and so idk we'll have to see how that goes i guess. they were suppose to call back so we could figure out a time cuz my mom wanted me to get in today b/c the couselor wanted my mom to come too and so since she already had today off it would work better for today. but i guess i'm only gonna get to see her like twice a month, idk if that's really what i want. idk i don't think it helps to go and talk idk why but i just feel like after meeting with the counselor i leave and i just pretend nothing happen like idk it's weird. i don't feel like it helps to go and sit with someone because i know i only get like an hour and so i can stall and not talk about it and it's like once i'm done i just feel like nothing happend because we dont' talk about what's really bugging me, it's alway's the surface stuff and it the deeper stuff that i need help with but i'm not ready to open up with that and that's why i wanted to go to inpatient because i would be there and there woudl be no pretending and idk going to someone i dont' think helps me but whatever mine as well do it till i find a place to go to. *sigh* i just want help. anyone know of anyother inpatient places i could go to?