just got done with my two basketball games. there werent' that good. idk i wasn't very good.i relized sitting on the bench that idk if basketall is what i want to do. like it is but idk maybe i just wont try as hard. these last two year's i was obsessed i never missed one open gym one camp or even one pratice, i was alway's there. my freshman year i missed one and that's cuz i was sick. i have only missed one pratice,game,open gym in 2 years! i'm pretty sure i was obsessed, and i think it was away to keep my mind on something good but now i think i'm just tired from it. idk, now i just smell really bad lol, yuck.

 last night before i went to bed i took 3 tylonal pm and now sitting here, i wish i would have tooked more. the hole bottle, idk just wish i would have. i'm too scared to actually  kill myself, gosh i'm such a baby!