umm so i just cut, havent done that in a while, umm i just feel sad right now. i was happy but after i got out of the shower i just got really sad and was thinking about my friend and how i miss her and there is a possibility that she wount come back but it's a slim one but she's a good actress and i hope she gets a really good offer out there but i just want her to come back! and then i was thinking about mason. i still have one of his stuff animals that he gave me while he was abusing me. i totally forgot about it and it just brought back a load of memories and emotions back. i wanted to take that bear and rip it and and throw it away but i couldn't touch it i couldn't look at it. so i just grabed my razor and cut myself. the kids pictures are hanging on the wall going up the stairs and i see his face everytime i got up and down the stairts. i want nothing more than to hit and break the glass but i can't look at it, if i do i want to throw up. *sigh*
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Oh my good girl,,,,,,,,,,what happened? You have to be stronger than that. You are adding scars and pain to your already scarred and painful body. That\'s kind of letting him win again. You need to be the winner, the bigger person. Get rid of what ever u have to cut with. Then u cant! Get rid of it!!! Write to your brother! Say whatever you want to to him! when r u going inpatient? PLZ PLZ GET YOURSELF IN THERE SOON. I love u and dont want you hurting yourself. Write to me next time. Im praying for you!! Love Nichole
I pray tomorrow is much, much better for you. As soon as you feel strong again, please take the steps toward healing so that you don\'t carry emotional issues into adulthood. You can overcome, but \"no man is an island\" -- meaning that everyone exists by the help of others. At this point in your life, in-patient care sounds as if it would be beneficial. I believe that you may be scared of the unknown, of a different rutein that could be difficult - that\'s a normal reaction to any life altering situation. I also believe that your intelligent and that you know what you need to do, but you may be letting fear get in your way. Once you take steps to help yourself and stay on that path with determination, you can accomplish what you set out to do. Your a powerhouse of strength and you can tap into to that when you believe in yourself. Make good decisions for yourself. Your important to all of the lives that you touch and you matter to them, to me.
kayla rose, i wish you would have called me, I would have dropped everything and talked to you, u know im three with you, you know i love you.....
I LOVE YOU...