so i'm talking to mason and it's kind of weird. i hate talking to him when he try's and acts like were cool and nothing ever happend. i mean he trys and acts concern and he's trying to buy back my trust and all that. like he was like i'm gonna buy a new golf set do you want one and i don't golf and so then he was like well the eclipse at home you can have when i get home. it's stick shift and idk how to drive that and he was just like oh you can learn and so i was just like whatever. and then he was just like do you have a boyfriend and all like if you do i'd have to do some ass kicking. that pisses me off. since when does he get to decide when he's gonna be and act like a brother? that just makes me mad cuz i'm just like you abused me and now your trying to be the brother you should have? i  should get to decide when i want/ready for him to be in my life and be my brother but he's like pushing it and i don't like that but i don't know who to be like dude you can't do this you can't force you way back into my life by trying to be the brother you should have been and buying my love. and when he was talking about the car he was like when i come home it's yours, ok the thought of him coming home is sooooooooooooo scary! idk what to do i just about started crying i'm so scared idk why, i guess i just feel like he still has control over me and idk maybe i'm letting him idk. he's just really controling. like i'll be talking to him on msn and he will alway's want an answer and like i was set to away so i wasn't at my computer and he was just like hey....hey kayla i'm talking to you..and will just say stuff that makes me mad and like when i was talking to him a while ago i told him that i didn't like being around mom and he asked why and i told him and i guess that answer wasn't good enough and was just like kayla tell me the truth what is she doing like there sould be something more or bigger then what it really was. idk....he just get's pushy on msn sometimes.