hey guy's, so i havent written in a while, srry about that but my computer has been broke but were suppose to be getting it back today so i'll be able to write more!
not much has been happening, just work and school mostly i guess. last night idk i was laying in my bed gonna study my bio but didn't want to so i start thinking and my mind starts racing and i start feeling shitty and so i decide to go on a run didn't know where i was going to go to but just knew i needed to get out of my house before i hurt myself. well i ended up at a friends house and we sat outside while i was crying and we just talked for like 2 and a half hours or so. it was a good talk and i needed and wanted to talk to her. it helped alot (not sure if she know's how much it helped) but it was really good so today was good. i'm kind of tired cuz i didn't get to bed till 1:13 because i had to atleast write my vocab words out but so ya. my dad got mad at me tho. he was like you don't need to talk to 1 in the morning and i told him i went on a run and needed to talk and so she talked to me, but he did'nt really understand, i know he was prolly worried about me but o well. everything is fine, he'll get over it and so will i.
so i was talking with my friend and she was talking to me about finding something that i can like excapt to something that will let me get my feelings out but in a good way like for her it's acting and becoming someone else and i think for me it's dancing. and we were talkign and she wants to start something up in my town that's like music therapy because my town have nothing even close to that and then we were talkign and thinking i should start a dance therapy place too when i am out of high school and stuff. i think that would be really cool and it combindes the two things i love, dancing and helping people especially kids.
but in other news everything has been good. just ready for summer to come and to just relax and have fun!
not much has been happening, just work and school mostly i guess. last night idk i was laying in my bed gonna study my bio but didn't want to so i start thinking and my mind starts racing and i start feeling shitty and so i decide to go on a run didn't know where i was going to go to but just knew i needed to get out of my house before i hurt myself. well i ended up at a friends house and we sat outside while i was crying and we just talked for like 2 and a half hours or so. it was a good talk and i needed and wanted to talk to her. it helped alot (not sure if she know's how much it helped) but it was really good so today was good. i'm kind of tired cuz i didn't get to bed till 1:13 because i had to atleast write my vocab words out but so ya. my dad got mad at me tho. he was like you don't need to talk to 1 in the morning and i told him i went on a run and needed to talk and so she talked to me, but he did'nt really understand, i know he was prolly worried about me but o well. everything is fine, he'll get over it and so will i.
so i was talking with my friend and she was talking to me about finding something that i can like excapt to something that will let me get my feelings out but in a good way like for her it's acting and becoming someone else and i think for me it's dancing. and we were talkign and she wants to start something up in my town that's like music therapy because my town have nothing even close to that and then we were talkign and thinking i should start a dance therapy place too when i am out of high school and stuff. i think that would be really cool and it combindes the two things i love, dancing and helping people especially kids.
but in other news everything has been good. just ready for summer to come and to just relax and have fun!
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You\'ll be well equipt to help others after you finish high school and in-patient care because you\'ll have compassion after having struggled with over coming your own difficulties. You\'ll also lend strength to others by example in that you\'d be doing positive things with your life regardless of experiences from the past. Your very kind to be thinking of others right now during your own struggles. Dance therapy sounds like a fun outlet of emotion and a healthy way of expression. Are you thinking of giving classes while you also attend college toward progression in this field? Something positive always comes out of seemingly bad things, and your dance aspirations of helping others sounds like that silver lining. Good for you!!! For now, though, remember to take care of Kayla.
U r such a sweet girl. I hope you are feeling better. When r u going to inpatient. The sooner the better. Then you will feel so much better.
im glad u had someone to talk to at 1am