well today is ok. i've been tired all day. been depressed these past few day's. i have to work tonight :( and tomorrow night :(. i didn't get off work till 10:15 last night and then i didn't get to bed till 12:30 cuz i was up doing my homework and i couldn't really sleep.
last night i finally saw my brother. i hadn't seen him in like 4 day's. like he woudl come home but not till like really late and i was already in bed and then i would leave before he got up or sometimes he didn't even come home. but so i saw him last night and he wasn't very nice. i was over at my friends house doing my homwork cuz our computer is broken and so i came how a lil after 12 and he was like where were you and got all pissed so i told him and then he was like who's black lab is running around. it doesn't sound like he was being mean by what he said but it was just like how he said it. i get mad when people say something to me in a wrong tone. idk why i just do i think it's like disrepectful i guess. and i was mad cuz i hadn't seen him in 4 day's and he treats me like that and i was worried that something had happened to him and idk. it's weird but he keeps me together and alive. he doesn't know it but he does. if he wasn't here i would go insane with my mom. he droped out of school so now he wont graduate. that makes me mad because i know he can do it he's just to lazy to and if he didn't party all the time maybe he would but he's just mad to many bad choices that i dont' think he think's he can make things right, or atleast he doesn't want to take the time or effort to try. i just want the best for him and idk what to do. i guess nothing he doesn't want my help.
well i'm headed off to work. my mom is opening up a checking account for me and i don't really want on lol. i don't like usuing checks and balancing your check book, i'm not good at it and i don't want to deal with it but she insisted and i didn't feel like fighting wiht her, it wasn't worth it.