well i've just been depressed for the past like 2 day's and so idk.
i talked with my mom last night and she was being dumb like alway's! we were talking about baskebtall and she was like have you looked into any camps and i told her that not really because i would have to see what would work with the dates i'm gone at the inpatient care place and she was just like but baskebtall is your life and it's your main prioity and all this bull that i already know but right now basketball isn't my main priority. AHHHHHH!!!! and i was just like mom, i need to heal i just hide behind basketball, and she was just like ya that might be but it has helped you and all this crap that she kept saying, and i was just like mom i'm going to and inpatient place AHHHH!! so then we were talking about my counselor and how maybe i could go to someone else cuz i only see her about like once a month and then she was like would you concider seeing a male counselor there? and i don't want to see a male counselor. sop i told her that and she was just like "when i was younger i went through some things that i'm not comfortable talking with you about and i didn't think i would want to talk ot a male but i didn't mind it." so she was trying to push me into seeing a male counselor but i dont want to. but there are some other girls like about an hour away from where i live that i could go and see she said. ah she just makes me mad sometimes. i think maybe she sould get into counseling. i mean it seems like she has some problems that she hasn't really delt with and so she shoudl go too.
i talked with my mom last night and she was being dumb like alway's! we were talking about baskebtall and she was like have you looked into any camps and i told her that not really because i would have to see what would work with the dates i'm gone at the inpatient care place and she was just like but baskebtall is your life and it's your main prioity and all this bull that i already know but right now basketball isn't my main priority. AHHHHHH!!!! and i was just like mom, i need to heal i just hide behind basketball, and she was just like ya that might be but it has helped you and all this crap that she kept saying, and i was just like mom i'm going to and inpatient place AHHHH!! so then we were talking about my counselor and how maybe i could go to someone else cuz i only see her about like once a month and then she was like would you concider seeing a male counselor there? and i don't want to see a male counselor. sop i told her that and she was just like "when i was younger i went through some things that i'm not comfortable talking with you about and i didn't think i would want to talk ot a male but i didn't mind it." so she was trying to push me into seeing a male counselor but i dont want to. but there are some other girls like about an hour away from where i live that i could go and see she said. ah she just makes me mad sometimes. i think maybe she sould get into counseling. i mean it seems like she has some problems that she hasn't really delt with and so she shoudl go too.
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You are bright. You understand that your inner self takes priority over anything else. Mother\'s do the best that they can, but sometimes children end as teachersfor their parents in some circumstances. It sounds as if that\'s what\'s happening now. Try to not let her confuse you. Your smart enough to know what you need to do for your greatest benefit, for what is really fulfillment -- peace of mind, not basketball. I\'m so glad that you understand this. Once you heal, everything else will be all the more sweeter! Nothing will be lost. You can always pick up basketball and other activities again. Way to go in staying focused and strong kayla!
i agree with Ful, they said it all basicly
your mom is hurting and doesnt want to accept the truth, sending you for help, is admitting the truth and i think its a reality she does not want to face.
You def need to go kayla, u need to heal, cause u are so worth it, i love you sis
Listen to yourself, for it will be u living in your skin forever! Your mom doesnt have to live in your skin. And being in mine right now, isnt FUN! I wish I could have had your opurtunities when I was younger. Then my life today may not have been so difficult.