grr my mom is *bad word* gay. she just called and we have caller id and so i knew it was her and so i was just liek hmmmhhh....and she was just like what r u doing adn i said nothing and then she was like that's not a very nice way to answer the phone and i was just like well i knew it was you and she got mad and i asked her what she wanted and was just like never mind i'll talk to you when i get home. god she was pissed at me for the way i answered the phone. duh that is soooo dumb and imature!
i have to work tonight and that's gonnna suck. i'm the only one workign tonight like in my spot, we sometimes have two people but tonight i'm the only one along with the like cook and i'm kind of nervouse because this is my first time working by myself. o well it will be fine. i just hope i don't mess up lol. oh and i'm guess that i'm gonna have to stay and clean up and all that after so i wont get out of there till like 11 and i have homework that is due tomorrow so it's gonna suck i'm gonna be up late...darn!
last night i cut mysefl. not really sure why but i was sad and kind of mad so i wanted to and so i did.
i have to work tonight and that's gonnna suck. i'm the only one workign tonight like in my spot, we sometimes have two people but tonight i'm the only one along with the like cook and i'm kind of nervouse because this is my first time working by myself. o well it will be fine. i just hope i don't mess up lol. oh and i'm guess that i'm gonna have to stay and clean up and all that after so i wont get out of there till like 11 and i have homework that is due tomorrow so it's gonna suck i'm gonna be up late...darn!
last night i cut mysefl. not really sure why but i was sad and kind of mad so i wanted to and so i did.
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I could see what a beautiful heart you have when you wrote about visiting your friends gravesite. You talked about how important is is to treat people well when you have the chance. There was so much tendeness in that journal and it was sad but beautiful. It\'s easy to take people for granted, but life is short and we never know when a loved one is going to be taken back home. That includes our parents. It doesn\'t always seem like it, but they are true blessings for our growth. They deserve to be treated within the same goodness that they taught you to treat others. I think your mother go upset because she was just wanting that same respect. Courtesy goes a long way toward warding off regretts. I know, sometimes it\'s really, really difficult, but no one knows how many tomorrows we have with each other. :)
I am a cutter so I know how you feel. Sometimes you just do. It makes you feel better. My pdoc told me it\'s better to cut myself than kill myself. The cutting will get less as you start to feel better about yourself and don\'t want to curl up and die like you did last night.
Hi my cute friend. Im sad to hear you felt the need to cut. That makes me sad. But you are doing so well juggling work and school. Im so proud of you. When are you going to inpatient? I think you will end up loving it, and meeting some great friends, and never wanting to leave there.
big hugs love ya your doing so well