well i just got an e-mail back from my aunt i was telling you guy's about. she said she she is there for me and wants to help me but that i have to be honest wiht her and i am alway's honset with people. she said that she didn't know i was suicidal and cutting and then she said that she wouldn't know that because i don't talk to her or soemthing like that. i mean comon! i have always talked to her and told her everything and then she up and left and moved to some other fucking state how the hell amd i gonna talk to her. i needed her and she just left us.sorry for the laungage i'm just pissed and upset. i didn't get to say good bye or anything i never even say her. she is my fav aunt and was always there for me. now she's not and now i spend more time with my other aunt and i wish she was here and i'm just pissed at her. she tells me she cares for me and wants to help me and all but she hasn't done anything to help. ya she was there for me for a while but then she left me. i havent talked to her at all. only like for 5 minutes the most on the phone when she was calling for my mom. i've written her a couple of e-mails and she'll right back the first time and then i never hear from her again. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO PISSED AND HURT!!
i don't know what to do i want to be pissed but i'm glad she's actually being there for me but for her to say that she wouldn't have known that i was suicidal and cutting because i didn't tell her.....OMG R U KIDDING ME!! why would i tell her. she lives in another state and just abandon me when i needed her and when i thought she would be there for me. but i guess not!!
man i hate crying!!