i really have any words right now. idk i meet with her today she was nice i guess not really what i've sort of had in mind. she's a lil older then what i wanted. i just really was lookin for someone in their late 20's or 30's idk i seem to connect with people that age better. but she was nice i think i will like her. she like's athletes and is big into sports and so that's a plus considering i am too. i just went in there and wanted to start balling but i didn't i held myself together. she told me that my mom said that she didn't think i believed her that she believed's me and my counselor told me she said she does and that made me tear up because i don't think she does and she has never told me she does. idk she told me that my mom wasnt' really for sure why i needed to see one but that she knew that someday's i felt that i needed to talk to someone and she asked me why i htought that was and i just told her that she doesn't undertsand me very well and doesn't take the time too and my counselor said taht was a shame beacuse i'm a cool kid and worth understanding. idk if that' true but if it is i wish my mom would see that and take the time.
my mom came in and asked if i like her and i said she was ok a lil old but whatever. and she was like well i tryed i looked everywhere and i told her that i didn't think that she did and she was just like well i had to find someone that the insureance would take and i'm not gonna pay $150 for someone when we have insureance and she said that she wasnt' gonna call and be like is she young and cool....ahh she makes me soooo mad. she doesn't take into consideration who whould be best for me all she cares about is that it's a girl and the insureance will cover it. that makes me sooo mad if it were my kid and she was going through what i am i wouldn't care how much it cost as long as she saw someone who would help her and who was good for her. grrrrr i'm so pissed about that she puts on this act for other people. telling my counselor how much she cares about me but she doesn't understand anything about me i know she cares about me but then again i don't thik she does!! ahhh i just want to cry to cut to do anything!!!!
my mom came in and asked if i like her and i said she was ok a lil old but whatever. and she was like well i tryed i looked everywhere and i told her that i didn't think that she did and she was just like well i had to find someone that the insureance would take and i'm not gonna pay $150 for someone when we have insureance and she said that she wasnt' gonna call and be like is she young and cool....ahh she makes me soooo mad. she doesn't take into consideration who whould be best for me all she cares about is that it's a girl and the insureance will cover it. that makes me sooo mad if it were my kid and she was going through what i am i wouldn't care how much it cost as long as she saw someone who would help her and who was good for her. grrrrr i'm so pissed about that she puts on this act for other people. telling my counselor how much she cares about me but she doesn't understand anything about me i know she cares about me but then again i don't thik she does!! ahhh i just want to cry to cut to do anything!!!!
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hon, I\'m so sorry that today didn\'t go as well as you hoped. Maybe it will get better over time, but PLEASE, if you need to cut, email me. I\'ve needed to alll day too, and maybe we can keep eachother company, so we don\'t need to cut anymore. mail me, ok?