poop so i so had this long journal and my computer was gay so i had to restart it so now i have to rewrite it darn!
so i ment to write this last night but i didn't because i had to study my bio and i prolly should have wrote it because i didn't get to bet till 1:30 or 2 in the morning, i just couldnt sleep. and it's not just because of this but my mind just tends to race at night and i just start thinking about anything and everything so i have to take some pills to make me sleep..but they only work if i'm not thinking and am ready to go to bed lol.
so i was dropping off a friend and my neighbor calles and she want's to borrow a collered shirt for golf. well i said fine and i got in a bad mood because she was in a bad moon talking to me like she didn't want to ask me, and she said she didn't even know why she was asking me because she wasn't gonna fit in them anyway's. (she's abotu 105 5'5'' and wears a size 0-1 so she's pretty skinny but she's not anorexic and everyone thinks she is but she's not). so i come home and grab my shirts and put them on our table and call and tell her im' home and hse makes me watch her walk over to make sure nothing happens to her. now we live about 100 yards not even that from eachother and well we've been doing this ever since i moved her and i would watch her walk over here and walk home to make sure nothing happend to her and i understand that at like a young age but she's almost 15 and you would think she coudl walk over by herslef. but i guess i would feel bad if something happend to her and i wasn't there but idk i just didn't feel like it but i did anyway's. well she comes in and is like can i seem then and get one and she like these arn't gonna fit me their short and wide. so i was like umm ok then does that mean i short and fat and she just laughed and said no. then she grabed one and i had to watch her walk home. i was kind of mad.
idk she's alway's been like this to me she's always have told me i was fat and stupid. and i'm just sick of it. i know i'm not skinny like her and i'm not an A student but come on you don't need to point thoes out it's not like i'm pround of not being very smart and not being very pretty idk. someday's she'll be very nice and say nice things and then other day's she'll just be really mean and say i'm fat or something makes me look fat and that i'll never get into college. she just basicly crashes all my dreams. idk why i put up wiht her for so long but i did but now we don't see much of eachother and i dont' mind it but somdays i miss her but her nice side.
so i ment to write this last night but i didn't because i had to study my bio and i prolly should have wrote it because i didn't get to bet till 1:30 or 2 in the morning, i just couldnt sleep. and it's not just because of this but my mind just tends to race at night and i just start thinking about anything and everything so i have to take some pills to make me sleep..but they only work if i'm not thinking and am ready to go to bed lol.
so i was dropping off a friend and my neighbor calles and she want's to borrow a collered shirt for golf. well i said fine and i got in a bad mood because she was in a bad moon talking to me like she didn't want to ask me, and she said she didn't even know why she was asking me because she wasn't gonna fit in them anyway's. (she's abotu 105 5'5'' and wears a size 0-1 so she's pretty skinny but she's not anorexic and everyone thinks she is but she's not). so i come home and grab my shirts and put them on our table and call and tell her im' home and hse makes me watch her walk over to make sure nothing happens to her. now we live about 100 yards not even that from eachother and well we've been doing this ever since i moved her and i would watch her walk over here and walk home to make sure nothing happend to her and i understand that at like a young age but she's almost 15 and you would think she coudl walk over by herslef. but i guess i would feel bad if something happend to her and i wasn't there but idk i just didn't feel like it but i did anyway's. well she comes in and is like can i seem then and get one and she like these arn't gonna fit me their short and wide. so i was like umm ok then does that mean i short and fat and she just laughed and said no. then she grabed one and i had to watch her walk home. i was kind of mad.
idk she's alway's been like this to me she's always have told me i was fat and stupid. and i'm just sick of it. i know i'm not skinny like her and i'm not an A student but come on you don't need to point thoes out it's not like i'm pround of not being very smart and not being very pretty idk. someday's she'll be very nice and say nice things and then other day's she'll just be really mean and say i'm fat or something makes me look fat and that i'll never get into college. she just basicly crashes all my dreams. idk why i put up wiht her for so long but i did but now we don't see much of eachother and i dont' mind it but somdays i miss her but her nice side.
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You don\'t need a friend like that! If it were me, I would try to end that so called friendship. You deserve to have friends that support you and want the best for you. You\'re certainly not fat and you\'re gorgeous!
You will get into college and she is an ASS! You just think that everytime she says anything negative!! You are a wonderful girl on the inside and outside and you just gotta remember that!