well so i just had a panic attact. now i feel numb and it's kind of hard to write this but i need to. i just had a flash back on what happend to me and it made me sick and pissed off. my brother ruined my life. made everything sexual like giving a hug and now it's alway's in my mind and i hope oneday it wont be there. i also had another flash back on what happend to me but it wasn't my brother who was doing it to me, it was 2 of his friends. i don't know what to do, i never told anyone about this because i kind of put it out of my mind and now it's coming back and idk what to do. i can't tell anyone because their parents are friends with mine and i'm pretty sure they don't even remember and no one woudl believe me.
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it might be time to talk to a thearapist even if u have to go somewhere where your parents won\'t know . I don\'t know how old you are but even if u have to go to a high school if thats your age ge tthe guidance conselour to call someone or direct you in the right direction. I know that planned parent hood or some type of agency like that defiantly could direct you towards a rape counselor so that you could talk that through and i am so sorry that you had to go through that and please remember i am always here for you fi you need to talk contact me @joanne_sharpe@Hotmail.com through msn if u want to talk personaly
I know the feeling of panic attacks - I get them quite often - not always for the same reason as you, but I can understand. It\'s a horrid feeling - I hoope as joey2006 says you are able to get some help. And we are always here to talk to when these things happen :-)Jess x x x
Hi Sweetie! It\'s popping up cuz u r beginning to deal with this stuff! It hurts, but it will be manageable as soon as you atrt that therapy! Tell it all to her. Sometimes they suggest writing it all out, and then burning it. It\'s a way of releasing it to the gods in smoke. But if you dont like the therapist your mom picked, take my advice and get a referral to one who specializes in rape, sexual abuse, and issues related. Also Joey up above mentioned a good idea! Thos family planning groups help and support girls underage, and could guide you to a good one without your parents knowing. Write to me anytime you want. I\'ve been through it all and waited way longer than you to deal with it. You have a chance to deal and live a happier life than I did cuz u r still young!!! Take the oppurtunity, and get it woked out. Love u! Nichole
i think you should talk to someone, anyone. a therapist or councelor maybe. they\'re swore to confidentiality so they couldn\'t tell anyone without your permission. it helped me. i used to get really bad flashbacks and i\'d disociate. talking about it DOES help. i don\'t know what else to say execpt that i know what you\'re going through and i\'m here for you! with love, Chris